hellooooo guys! yiha! today is 10 of may and tomorrow will be my first examination day, and as well, i hate exam......... ergh, 21 papers to go dude! fighting yun!
my day today was very happy and and and im so excited as i can selfie with him lol hahahahahah!! first at all, nak cerita lah jugak pasal sorang budak ni..

okay.
so here is how a very awkwardly introvert guy meets the extremely extrovert girl..



i first meet him 5 years ago, we were both in primary school (sekolah agama). but at that moment, we were complete strangers to each other. we only knew the other one's existence but was never interested in knowing the real person behind the existence.

we never spoke to each other. we were just random strangers passing by each other's life. but then, "that" happen or i would prefer to call it as a "life changing" moment. it was when we were put in the same class level... mula-mula tu rasa macam habislah, im going to face some communication problems with that boy since diani bukanla jenis yang banyak cakap especially dengan perempuan! i would say, he prefers drawing more than humans. to cut the story short, time form 4 (tahun lepas), we were put in the same class weh! basically, aku duduk belakang and dia duduk depan so bila belajar wajib terpandang. lol.

mulanya, takdelah nak bercakap sangat dengan diani, bila dia melukis jelah aku sebok nak tengok (well tak pandai melukis, so terpegun la tengok org lukis) since then our "frequency" of conversation increased tapi memang me la yg do most of the talking (obviously). the boy will just be obedient listener.
(form 1), but who would have thought, him had been slowly falling for me & out of nowhere confess. i had a heart attack! dahla confess dekat depan toilet kot, suruh kawan cakap pulaktu!
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

i seriously didn't saw it coming and was in a complete shock! i kept think what to say and how to react and how to face him (until now). i still remember, after he confessed, after kelas sains, i just can't bring my legs to class dok! i was wondering around the stairs and kept hitting my bestie (afiah on that time) just because i was too nervous to face him! nak taknak, kene datang jugak sekolah! oh god, those feelings back then!



honestly, my feeling towards him was just so-so . tak suka, tak benci. just niat nak berkawan.i know he's a decent guy (but not me) and "izhar halki" sincerity diatu. but u know, u cant force your feeling. for years jugakla bende ni tergantung atas sebab aku tak bagi dia apa apa jawapan masatu (and dia pon ada crush on someone) i just cant really figure out my feelings towards him. suka ke tak, ikhlas ke tak. yela, tak baik kan mainkan hati orang ni, if tak suka jangan bagi harapan palsu!

but one thing for sure. i kept telling myself that i would be the stupidest girl in the world if i let go of this man from my life. lelaki rare susah dah nak jumpa zaman ni kot. rare here means, he has iman, non smoker (paling penting!!) and he has the brain! well, what else can i ask for right? kacak? abang sado? no, its not permanent and it does not guarantee your happiness girls!

(ɔ◔‿◔)ɔ ♥ to be continue!